I wasn't part of the original post but having read it would just like to say I hope you're ok twinny. I went through the same thing two years ago with my yorkie. It was the hardest decision I've ever made, but it really is the most loving thing you can do for your dog. I hope you're okay. Rememeber you've got an awful lot of people here who've been exactly where you are, we're here should you need us!