horseshoes, I am
so[i sorry to hear this and you are right to have a wee weep or two or even three. I am sure you will have many more (unfortunately).
However, you [i] do have[i] the right attitude and you [i] will] boss this. With family and support from friends, and even us ABers, you will get through.
If you want some support off line from a whole group of us stupid reprobates, let us know;
[email protected] - if you want to contact me and I am sure that we will all bundle behind you.
ABers are thinking of you and you have our love tonight, and into the future.
And, please, try and get some sleep; you need your rest.
DTC