Tinks - as someone who knows what it's like, you are doing 100% the right thing. These days the GPs are much more genned up on dealing with this sort of condition - it's not nearly as rare as people think (and I know how when it's happening, you can think you're the only one in the world who must be feeling like this) and there is stuff which can be done - mine was treated successfully with hynotherapy. You have a lot on your plate at the moment - it's no wonder you are stressed, and getting het up subconsciously - as one does - about the likelihood of an attack adds to it.
If family and friends have never experienced it, it's impossible to get over to them how weird and out of control you feel when an attack comes on, and how helpless you feel for those few moments - and what a burk you feel afterwards, for feeling like that for what seems like no good reason. You are not alone!
Someone once asked me what the worst thing which could happen when having an attack could be - I guess that you pass out /fall over - in which case someone will come and help - that's too practical, though! It's the fear of the fear which is the most difficult thing, and it comes unexpectedly.
Whatever you do - please don't think that you are a basket case. You're suffering your bit of the stresses of modern living - you can and will get through this. There are folk on here who don't mind admitting that they've been through this (and some still are) - the moral support here will help get you through it. x