Tinks , you have my utmost sympathy, I know what you are going through. Like other friends on here I can recall the horror , shame , fatigue and fear that accompanied my panic attacks. The sub-concious mind is a powerful beast , I think we underestimate it sometimes. I found with my " episodes " the panic was indiscriminate and would strike , ( like Martini ) any place, any time , any where. I had a good GP and tried different medicines before referring me to my local mental health team. I still get panicky occasionally but now I have learned how to handle it so it does not blight my life. You can too Tinks, it may take a little while and you may find you are more / less perceptive to reprogramming your thought process. Which is what it amounts to. One of the things I tried ( and still use now ) is when I feel pressured and liable to panic, I count. Anything I can see, if I can't see anything interesting , I just count ! Sounds completely daft but for me it works as a great distraction and I can get on. Try lots of different things Tinks, sooner or later you will find one that helps. Don't stop talking about it, you may be surprised to know how many people suffer. One other thing my mental health nurse shared with me ........these things usually strike people with higher intelligence. !! Tinks don't despair, you can learn ways to cope, big cyber hugs from me (((( HUG ))) xxx