Not nice thoughts...

[tinkerbell23]

I KNOW im like a broken record!

And iv had ALL the advice under the sun!!!! (which i am following honest)

Have a bath run, had my tablets plus a few kalms....
Awaiting councelling...


Usually the daft thoughts brought on the panic and then i was ok...

But past few days the silly thoughts have been 10x worse :0(

Dont know why! Ive had diarreah and im also wretching with the big ball of fear in my stomach.....

Wish i knew why theyve gotten worse...when ive made positive steps this week.

Ive kept busy and kept in company but i keep having to take deep breaths and just cant shake the feelings....even trying to fall asleep is so hard because i cant switch off- that includes when i have meditation earphones in and my tablet that makes me sleepy :0(

Just wanted to say really. I know ive had all
Of the most amazing advice xx

[tenrec]

So sorry to hear that Tinks. Try to think of thinks you have really enjoyed or done in the past that have brought you happiness to take your mind off stuff.

[Mamyalynne]

So difficult to answer when as you say we have all given our bits and pieces of advice, so often it is a vicious circle, spray some favourite perfume around add some low sweet music and cuddle your little pooch, some day this will all be a memory.

[tinkerbell23]

Im trying! I really am :0(

Yous must b sick of me...i know i am.

X

[Mamyalynne]

Not at all sick of you, have been there and understand really I do.

[tinkerbell23]

I hope so mamya! As ive said im actually very blessed and lucky in life i shouldnt be feeling like this!

Doc said its basically my "pet fear" and anytime i get a bit iffy i think about my pet fear....so silly

Desperate for it to stop!! Trying all i can honestly xx

[tenrec]

I would never be sick of you. You brighten up my day with your threads.

[looobylooo]

What's causing this, Tinkerbell?
Has something recently happened that's playing on your mind?

[tinkerbell23]

Pmsl aww thanks tenrec theyre usually pretty stupid!!

Hiya looby! Nothing i can pinpoint honestly i had panic on and off for years and a few bad once recently...docs on monday got a prescription and referre for councelling but have been at my worst "thought wise" since!!!

If anything i thought id be more chilled because ive set the ball rolling with councelling and with th beta blockers....but its been awful seriously awful! Plus kalms plus bachs......

And im seiously not a worrying kind of person !!!!!! I feel like a sack of sh1te xx

[EvianBaby]

Tinks, to cheer yourself up just keep on eye on my posts for a bit. I'm getting more drunk my the minute (need to man up) and it could get embarrassing. ;)

[tinkerbell23]

My heart isnt doing the fast beating obviously but can literally feel the adrenaline running through my arms and feeling sick and sore stomach :0(

And constant thoughts!!! Im not mental..honest! :0/

[tinkerbell23]

Hahahah evian i could do with a wee drink- too late to start now! Lol i jist want to sleep soon i think if i can fall over...an shut my daft mind off xx

[Purple_Popple]

One sympathizes Tinkerbell....been there too...comes & goes..here for you..just come on here as often as you need to. :) you are not alone. x

[DaisyNonna]

Poor Tinks.You are worrying about worrying. No wonder you are in a state. Try telling yourself it is alright to worry, list your worries in order of importance. You may even bore yourself to sleep. Love and hugs.

[Purple_Popple]

For you Tinks :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zjIcvDm1iC4&feature=related

[Gavmacp]

Hello Tinkerbell,
No I am not sick of you it takes as long as it takes. Me it was 15 years but for others it took one or two sessions with a good hypnotherapist. Look in the absence of anything else go to you tube find emotional freedom technique there is a lady demonstrating it approximately 8 minutes long.
My mantra or whatever you want to call it, this was before you run through the technique was " even though I am anxious I DEEPLY AND COMPLETELY ACCEPT MYSELF".
Maybe it will work for you without seeing a therapist. When I did it I thought it was the biggest load of bxllshxt I had ever come across and I had tried a few.
The panic and crushing anxiety, kind of disappeared but also I could look it in the eye and kind of say "do your worst" I did not have to dance to it's tune.
Tinkerbell I wish I was clever and could tell you why it has got worse as I never really got to the bottom of mine but maybe because you have taken some positive steps. Maybe your unconscious mind is uneasy. It is (in theory) trying to protect ou from further hurt.
I hope I am not rambling on.
As I say it takes as long as it takes. I am here for you as long as the journey takes.
Much love,
Gavin

[nungate]

We're here for you Tinks, just hang in there, we need our little ray of daft sunshine - you brighten up my days with your posts

[Kassee]

How were you when you were little - too young to remember - did you have a good life - do you think - when you were 1 or 2 year old ? Could anything have happened to you then that you cant remember but may be causing this anxiety now. I read a book about something like that once - a true story it was.

[tinkerbell23]

Thanks PP i honestly get sick of my own feckin moaping!

Hate the way i must come across on here cos im dead positive and chatty bubbly upbeat all of those things......and this sh1te happens!!! Uurgh!!

People sooo much more worse than i am in life xxx

[marval]

When you have a worry you worry more, it is only natural. If it helps to talk on here then please do so. I hope you are able to get your counseling soon, it is always good to talk to someone, and it does help to know you are not alone. You take care of yourself, and look forward to the light at the end of the tunnel.

[tinkerbell23]

Guys thank you soooo much seriously you all help me so so much!!

Well kassee i had a lovely childhood - never have wanted for a thing ...i hve a difficult relationship with my mum and i had a really bad relationship about 3yrs ago...sometimes i think i might have post traum stress!! Im soo looking forward to the councelling cos im pretty sure alot will come out in the wash!!!!!!!! Im dead open and chatty so im raring to go!!!

Im glad my silly threads make you LOL theyre the real tinks- not this- this is a temporary blip!!!!

I am going to set up the ipad and do the technique gavin nothing to lose!!!

Im worrying about worrying i know...and about it getting worse or never better! I always thought just about being dead in years to come thats my fear but of late i think it could be anytime and everytime i wake up ifeel like im literally taking my life in my hands and could just drop dead at anymoment!!

Even though im 100% healthy- so stupid!!!!! Xx