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No,Kiki-frog. What you're saying is what I need. As hard as it is to hear a lot of the time.
I will go to my doctors, although I really don't want to go through all the psychiatric help again. I feel like I've done it all and I don't know what else I'm meant to do/take.
My husband often just says 'we'll cope'. He's really rubbish when it comes to things like this, he's just like 'well, this is what you want and what I want, so lets just do it'. I feel like he doesn't understand that it's a big commitment, although I've tried to explain.
My physical health is not bad, I don't smoke, drink, do drugs. I exercise occasionally, although probably eat too much Chocolate (if you couldn't tell by the name)!
Our home is pretty good, would like a new bathroom, but that's more for cosmetic reasons over anything else.
My family would come around, my mother desperately wants to be a grandmother (regularly talks about it, but then will stop and shout 'but not yet!!!'). And I have a very close family unit of about 5.
The university nursery is full and has a big waiting list, so I wouldn't be able to use it, and probably wouldn't anyway. Some people are able to talk their children into the lectures etc, and most of the work is online, so it is not essential to turn up all the time.
Money would be a push, but as I said my husband should be promoted at the end of this year, and we would not be well off, but comfortable enough for me not to work for a couple of years. We also have a lot of family and friend with babies who are a few months old, and I'm sure we could buy or borrow items off them.