starting again

[nailit]

some time ago I posted this question http://www.theanswerb.../Question1121690.html
Obviously the problems were deeper and ive since had to move out of the home. Just how does anyone start again after a relationship?
Its not just the relationship, its my family that ive lost. Living on my own in a cold lonely flat. Havnt even got an internet connection for company...(typing this on a public computer)
Just how can you believe that you once actually had a relationship when it was a sham all along?
Ive seriously considered ending my life. Im already on anti depressants but seeing the doctor again wont solve anything, he cant give me my family back.

[anneasquith]

you could return to gp. there are many AD drugs available, good luck .

[Seadragon]

I sorry for not reading your link, just the main post and skim read some comments...this post shows there are some really nice, caring people here with good advice.

I understand how you feel and it is really difficult at the moment....but here you say 'Just how can you believe that you once actually had a relationship when it was a sham all along?...' Just imagine if you were still in the relationship? It was wrong and you knew it was wrong which is why you took steps ( I assume) to leave it.

Your family or those who will always be your family will be there for you. No-one can give you your family back because you not lost it.....the circumstances have changed that's all, not your love....esp for your son. Whatever's happened with your step-son, you don't have control over, the dynamics of that relationship can be hard anyway.

Personally I am against medication. What you can give to your family is your well-being and strength in coping with a difficult situation and a huge change. Your son will soon be an adult and you want to be a father that he can look up to when life brings drastic changes. Be proud.....you are starting again....it may take time....but you don't know what's around the corner....I wish you all the happiness every person deserves. xx

[nailit]

thanks anne and seadragon.

[prianka]

congratulations !!! well done you for having the guts and innitiative to do something about it...at least you didnt let it go on and on like i did for years..have you noticed its always cold, wet and miserable when you take that step lol....but thats life and remember, the summer is upon us and things will be brighter for you in all manner of things..better to cry for a little while and come through it than cry for the rest of your life if its not working....best wishes...prianka