I'm Superstitious And I'm Getting Worse!

[Meg888]

I know this sounds nuts, but as I get older I'm becoming extremely superstitious. I never used to be when I was younger, I would deliberately walk under ladders etc. But now I think I'm verging on ridiculous. I had two gents knock at the weekend to tell me about Jesus Christ, and I consider myself a christian, but I don't go to church. I told them politely I didn't wish to talk to them about it and spent the rest of the weekend feeling a bit awful and wary. Thinking I should have at least offered them a hot drink (as it was freezing) and now I'm thinking something bad is going to happen as a result of my dismissing them? I can find myself overthinking about these things and at the moment, life is going well and I get very worried at times, thinking something is going to come and spoil it all.

[Meg888]

Thanks for your kind words and LOL @ Atalanta - that ought to do it! I'm sure I will get better in time, I hope so anyway - I managed to drive to work this morning without 'saluting' any magpies, it was hard and I had to try and stop creeping thoughts of 'maybe I won't make it to work now'! I consider myself a rational, realist person, so I can only assume it's some sort of 'hidden' stress/anxiety. I say hidden because most of the time I'm ok, and I'm a positive person and like a laugh with the best of them. But it's there at the back of my mind that something awful is going to happen. Over the last 5yrs or so my luck has been up & down and I know it's been down to circumstances - not because I put an umbrella up in the house!! The problem with my partner is chewing at me a bit, like I say we're together but I am very bitter about the past. I'm stuck between making a clean break or just dragging it out, either way someone's going to get hurt....

[Marijn]

Maybe you doing these particular things that you do, is so you can feel you have a bit of control over the little things in life, and this is to compensate for you not having control over the big issues at the moment. I hope this makes sense. It will all get sorted in time.