Alcohol - Appetite Increase

[Baby_Sham]

For one reason or another I have had to knock alcohol on the head, but since doing so (I am still very early days) I have noticed a massive increase in appetite.
I would have thought it was the other way round, but does anyone know if this is 'normal'?

[Baby_Sham]

Thanks DT, your kind words are much appreciated :-) x

[chrissa1]

You must have made a conscious decision to go out and buy yourself some alcohol, baby_sham.

[Baby_Sham]

Unfortunately not, chrissa.
I found some hidden in my partners room.

I have never gone out to buy my own alcohol (I have anxieties when it comes to shops and going out), but I knew he'd hid some somewhere.
I'm not proud of myself, but I was having a particularly bad day.
Need to start from square one now :-(

[ummmm]

It's not back to square one...it's just a few steps back.

[DTCwordfan]

Square two - you know what you did.......so it's up....I wouldn't worry about your appetite at the moment too much - that's replacement of the loss carbs. I find on my annual purge that I lose 2-3 pounds a week without a change of diet - to lose more risks gall bladder issues (as I found).

[murraymints]

Baby..a wee stumble.....pick yourself up and keep marching on !! Xx

[chrissa1]

It's not really back to square one b_s, you just have to be a bit stronger. Though, you just have gone looking for it.
I know it is hard, but it can be done. I see you had difficulty in sleeping. That's what I had too. My doctor prescribed me Temazapam and I sleep fine now. Some people decry sleeping pills, but as my doctor said, the pros far outweigh the cons if you know that you can get a good night's sleep without the help of a drink.

Keep going, you'll do it. X

[chrissa1]

*though you must have gone looking for it*

[Baby_Sham]

I know I only have myself to blame, but it's just frustrating.
I'll start again, and hopefully I'll keep on track this time.

[anneasquith]

BS, where were you getting the alcohol from if you didn't go out to the shops ?

[chrissa1]

Anne, she found it hidden in her partner's room.

[Baby_Sham]

Chrissa, it's the sleeping that's really getting to me. I keep waking up covered in sweat at 3 o'clock in the morning.
I was taking medication, but I decided to forgo that once I'd found the alcohol (I know, I know) :-(

Anne, my partner had been getting it for me.
I know that makes him sound awful, but he's really not.
I was very manipulative when it came to getting it. Again, not something I'm proud of.

[anneasquith]

hi chrissa, I know that, what im asking is prior to detoxing where did the alcohol come from if BS didn't go to the shops.

[ummmm]

When did your anxiety start? I mean this badly?

[Baby_Sham]

Yes, the alcohol I found on the weekend came from my partners room, where he'd (badly) hidden it. Prior to that, I would get him to buy it for me every night.

[Baby_Sham]

A couple of years ago, maybe more.
It's a viscous circle though. If I feel anxious, I drink, but then it's twice as bad the next day. It's like a continuous cycle.

[chrissa1]

Ah, ok anne. What about antidepressants, bs? I am on Escitalopram and they are marvellous. They make me feel "normal." How about asking your doc about them? They really help. No stress equals no desire to drink.

[anneasquith]

well its never going to work if your partner is enabling you to consume alcohol. are the children at your parents because of you addiction, im sorry to sound harsh but this isn't a blip , you will be consuming the same amount of alcohol as before if not more very soon. I could understand if people think im being harsh, but I know through working with addictions how difficult giving up is,

[Baby_Sham]

Chrissa, I've been on and off Diazepam for about ten years (when my anxiety first ever started) but, and I know this will sound a bit weird, I have a 'thing' about taking tablets.
It kind of makes me anxiety worse, as I'm constantly worrying I'll be the one to suffer the 'rare side effects'.

Honestly, I'm a lost cause.

[chrissa1]

I totally agree with you, anne. BS did go actively looking for it.