Am I Bipolar

[nailit]

hi guys, please forgive me if this post sounds a bit disjointed, have had a few beers.
Its been suggested in previous posts that I might be a bit bipolar, please read previous posts for any info. Ive never been diagnosed as been bipolar. At the moment im taking mirtazapine for depression/anxiety and have never considered myself as been bipolar. However, in the last two days ive slept a total of 6 hours...4hrs friday night and only 2 hours last night (2am until 4am) and at the time of typing feel wide awake despite having consumed 18 units of alcohol. Another time that would put me in bed for a couple of days.
The last couple of days I have been consumed with doing a car boot sale, which ive done today and made over 300 pound (and thats excluding the hire of a van) with stuff ive collected over the last few months (but thats another story, ive ALWAYS been able to make money when needed), but im now just as worried about loosing it all now as ive done in the past when ive had money to the point of sleeping rough, (or in prison).
Ive had months of feeling 'normal' and then a few weeks of feeling 'depressed' to the point of suicide and then days when everything is actually ok. and then the cycle starts again (with varience of days weeks and months)
My 'depressive' cycles are ALWAYS attributed by the mental health proffesionals to my alcohol intake but for gods sake why wont they listen? I drink to cope with my emotions, NOT my emotions are CAUSED by my alcohol intake? Am so tired now, but at the same a bit wired, would just love to go asleep.
Am on a dongle thats nearly ran out but will pick up any replies ASAP.
Thanks guys.
(PS, Mirtazapine has been a great help since last year but beginning to feel ''adjusted'' to it, if that is possible?? (addicted?)

[Bathsheba]

My guess is that the shrink will up your dose to 45mg.

Good luck once again, + make sure you keep the appointment ;)

x x