Just Baring My Soul.

[Theland]

No asking for advice, but just a bit depressed.
Had to undergo several blood tests in the last two weeks, now been sent for even more. Also stool tests, am feeling really down.
Used to be healthy until 2010 then things just went from bad to worse.
Am 68 and just hope I can make provision for Mrs T, just in case.
Don't want sympathy, it comes to us all, just letting off steam. Forgive me.

[Georgiesmum]

Sending you love and lots of healing thoughts Theland. We all feel down at times but never be reluctant to share your thoughts. We are all here for you. God Bless you.
PS Im sure you arent really grumpy! Sometimes people just dont understand.

[ummmm]

Were you depressed before your health issues?

I hope you feel better soon xx

[Theland]

Yes I was. An ongoing periodic problem.
Up one day, down the next, further down the next.
But hey, I do realise how blessed I am, compared to so many others.
The trouble is, there is often no rhyme or reason for me being down, it just happens, and is horrible.
A bit of worrying news, health, family, anything really, just presses down. Hard to explain.
On the other hand, once in a blue moon, my mood is ecstatic, I love everybody, and I love the world, jittery with happiness, peace all around.
And then it ends. Back to the Big Dipper, up and down, and down, and down.
But I never lose sight of how blessed I am.

[ummmm]

Never compare how you feel to what others are going through. People cope differently with things. Knowing other people are worse off is never going to make you feel better, just worse.

Do you get much sleep?

[Eleena]

Morning Theland,
Apart from the medical problems you already have, moving home can be very stressful, the upheaval can make you anxious. It sounds like once it’s over though, this will be a positive move for you and yours as a home to live in. I hope you’re soon feeling more upbeat, I’m sure the new surroundings ( once you’re in and settled) will be an aid in your recovery x

[waterboatman]

I understand how you're feeling TL. You've got a lot going on all at the same time. You will get through it mate. There are a lot of people on here rooting for you. I'm just one of them! Chin up mate!

[david small]

Theland, remember to remind yourself, “This Too Will Pass” it’s all temporary. You are obviously suffering from depression, wether your GP can help alleviate your ordeal you will have to determine. Your love for, and therefore your dependence upon a deity is a mixed blessing for a soul suffering such as yourself.
Personally I know that there is a power greater than myself, that is. You can only open yourself to the love of an intangible “Something” and trust. Medically your mental instability could have many causes, and possibly some pharmaceutical or psychological assistance. Spiritually, you should let yourself relax a little more and trust in an intangible, inexplicable, unknowable universal power that ultimately we will all encounter, a tremendous love, that something, we often call GOD.

[rowanwitch]

Dave felt useless in his last few months, he and now you need reminding that your value is not in what you can do, but in who you are. If you love someone you pick up the tools and work for them until either they recover or no longer need that help. It's not a burden but payment for the rare smile that still can brighten your day, the shared anxieties that bring you closer than any shared task ever could.
Changing all the utilities and notifying new addresses is a boring job. I bet everyone is glad you are doing that one. See you are of use...

[1ozzy]

I know you don't feature in this video Theland, no Carlsburg in sight ;-/

Once you are settled in your new home flop into your favourite chair and have a beloved minion serve you a nicely chilled Carlie.

As far as the ups and downs go, welcome to the club old mate!

All the best, chill out ;-)

[1ozzy]

ps: I hope your stool passes the test, no wobbly legs.

[david small]

Love it 1ozzy. Thanks mate.