oh I forgot to add Max Beesely to my list.
Hmm, there is just someone who I lust after and imagine that he is with me when I am with my er... what to call him.... kinda boyfriend. I know that this person feels the same way about me, but its a case of trying to get together - distance is an issue. I don't want a relationship with him, I just need to get "it" out of my system if you know what I mean. Then I can go back to normal life, probably wondering what all the fuss was about.... sigh... what a sad, sad life I lead!