My mum lives with me and I look after her as she isn't fully mobile any more. She is an absolute darling, highly intelligent and funny ... but the reality is that she will be 90 in a few weeks time and every morning when I go to open her door and she looks so pale, I am so worried that she might not open her eyes. She has lived with me for the past 15 years and I can't imagine her not sharing a laugh with me every day.
My 2nd worry is that anything should happen to either of my children, my grandchildren or my partner. Having already lost my oldest son (to cancer), the fear is always there in the background.
My final worry is that I might follow in my father's footsteps as I have always been so like him in personality and health matters. He was the most wonderful gentle and kind man, but sadly died aged 58 due to medical negligence. I am now 57 and facing two major operations (knee replacements) in the next few months and have had cardiac arrests during and after major ops before. So, yes, I am very, very frightened. Thanks to my loving partner, I am happier than I have ever been in my whole life, but also so frightened of losing this precious life and this love I have found.