Grief Wardy! How did you find that one? You surprise me! Really hope your car comes soon. Its awful playing the waiting game when its for for something really nice.
Anyway, back to the question -
Divorced twice. First husband was a control freak and bully, so to keep us from further mental and physical harm I left with my 3 young kids. My second husband left me because he couldn't cope with my being diagnosed with cancer. His words were "I love you too much to watch you die." He then committed suicide a while later because he couldn't live with himself or his decision anymore. That was many years ago. My trust in relationships demolished, I then chose to remain on my own for over 20 years. Then one day I met the most loving and caring man in the world! Never imagined I could ever feel so happy and so at home in a man's heart, nor that I could learn to trust again and allow someone into mine. He truly lights up my heart every day and always makes me feel I am the light of his heart too! :o)