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[billyray2020]

I recently got a girl pregnant. It was a MASSIVE shock & I feel that I havent dealt with it too well.

Im not in a relationship with her, she's a lovely, attractive girl with a brilliant personality & I care about her a lot but Ive never really thought about it as anything more, I feel that she may have been more into me.

She told me about it, said she was going for an abortion didnt ask for money just a bit of support. I was completely gobsmacked & knew 100% that I wanted her to abort.

She went for the abortion, called me afterwards & told me she coulldnt go through with it. I felt that id been shot throught the heart, she asked me to pick her up because she was so upset & confused. im ashamed to say that I acted like a complete c**t told her I was busy & switched my phone off for 2 days.

Worse of all was that she txt me telling that I was off the hook, that she knew how I felt about it & that she could do this alone, she also said she wasnt angry with me & didnt blame me.

I later found out that she felt so alone, unsupported & all she wanted was for me to put my arms around her & tell her that it would be ok. It broke my heart to hear that & I have never felt so guilty.

I finally stepped up a few days later, took her out to dinner, offered her my 100% support whatever she wanted to do. She confessed that she was attached to the baby, had imagined what it would look like ect...She decided to have the abortion anyway.

She had a breakdown last week, i spoke to her & she was sobing her little heart out, I felt like a total w****r, told her it was her hormones, that she wanst weak & pathetic as she kept saying & reminded her of her decision to abort.

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