breaking point

[seffie]

i dont know what to do and i fell like im losing mymind ive had so much go on lateley i dont know where to start.
i was held hostage in my own house a few months ago and since had to move to a place were every last penny has to go on rent,iv just been told that for medical reasons i cant have anymore children.my partner hates me and for some stupid reason i stay with him knowing this im only in my 20s and i feel like ive lost everything,why do i stay with some1 who hates me??

[seffie]

I FELT SO LOST TODAY I JUST WANTED TO END IT ALL<I KNOW I CANT BUT I IT WAS just how i felt<we argued today and i told him that im leaving in the morning and he shant see me again>>>hes gone to his mates<he shows me cinstanly that he doesnt care $ me at all yet i love him so much<
i lost my job when we had to move and i dont have any friends< i spend my days as a mom which i know im ment to do but i have no life

[dannyday5821]

seffie, with all due respect why ask these questions? only you know the answer...we can all suggest, speculate, advise, yada yada, but your the only one who really knows what you want. its your life. you choose.

[tufty7]

Seffie, go and see your doctor , I am sure he will be able to assist you if you are desperate , Is there no family you can contact so you can talk things over ?? make an appointment and see what the doc can do for you .....

[Katie2008]

Seffie, you have had a lot to deal with lately, starting with being held hostage in your house. I think you have lots of things to deal with from Post traumatic stress, financial and relationship worries.
I worked for Victim Support for a number of years and you could benefit from having someone to talk to. Its hard giving advice from such little information, but would advice you to ring them, lots of issues, and would start at the first one, being held in your house, do you know that if you have been a victim of crime and its been reported to the police you could claim CICA (Criminal Injuries Compensation Award) victim support or Citizen Advice Bureau can help you with those.
Start there, with someone to talk to that is not involved may help you to sort through things.
Hope it helps, and good luck.