You will find a number of Visitors on here who have direct experience of this dreadful condition, in varying degrees. I assume you have seen your GP, and got some medication? You need to allow about three weeks for it to settle into your system. Don't worry about 'addiction' - I have taken medication for over fifteen years now, and anticipate taking it for the rest of my life. I see it the way a diabetic sees insulin - it's medication that helps me stay balanced, nothing more, nothing less. Times can get really ba, and it's impossible to believe that you will not always feel this way, but hang on, just get through it in its own time - and it is ITS time, not yours, which what is hard to deal with. Try and explain to those close to you just how hard this is to deal with - ask them to be there for you, or leave alone, depending what you need. Exercise is good - walking especially. Stay in touch with us - we are here for you. A xx