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thank you for understanding the depression aspect of this, and there is also the "feeling loney" and actually being alone, combine all three and add in the media, society , family etc and its a deadly(ooo deadly) combination......im not suicidal....lol ..;ive come to tems with it , that this is my life( and i have lots to be gr8ful for), but am always trying to find ways to fill my time, hence why im here/my original question,thanks for the siteinformation also