I don't know what else to do...

[SuDFB]

I lost an uncle on mine years back and I never got over it, it's so bad that everytime some dear to me falls ill I panic that they are going to die... For the last 2 years all I have been doing is worrying about other family members and I feel so tired and stressed, I am tense everyday when I get home from work... At the moment I have 3 family members unwell and I can't cope I keep thinking that I will have to go through all that pain again and never see that person every again... My husbands Grandad died a few months back and as much as I tried to be there for him I really struggled and I bearly knew him....It just seems that I can't deal with death... :(

[Mamyalynne]

SuDFB it is so sad that the hardest lesson we learn about life is death. You may feel that others around you are coping better and accepting it but we are all different. Maybe speak to your doctor you may benefit from talking to someone outside the family may help.
Please dont waste your life worrying enjoy the time you have with your loved ones, I cant promise you wont go through this again as you will as will we all.
From the heart
Mamya ♥

[SuDFB]

Mamya, thank you for your kind words... I know death will happen but I just find it so hard to deal with it, I can't help but worry I know I should be enjoying myself with them and etc... but I can't help but worry...

I have tried to speak to someone outside the family and it didn't realy help, but thanks for the advise...

:(

[reefgal]

You may be suffering with anxiety. Make an appointment to see your gp he will be able to refer you to a councillor. Dont suffer in silence.

[Bbbananas]

Bless ya. I think it would do you good to speak to a professional - ask your GP for a referral to a counsellor for this specific issue - hopefully your area will have one who deals with bereavement issues.

From a little girl I have always had a great fear of losing my dad. Every time he was ill I would be terrified of him dying. I am now 47 - he is now 80 & still alive and kicking!! I know I will have to face my fear one day, and at 80 inevitably that day is drawing every closer.

It is an emotive subject and one that a lot of people don't want to think about or fear. I think your fear is perhaps now that much it's affecting your own life - ask for help, you're not alone.

[SuDFB]

Thank you... I think reefgal your probably most probably its anxiety.
I dont want my family to realised that i am not coping...
Maybe I should see a my doctor... :)

Thank you

[baileybird]

I lost someone really close, my dearest friend, 25 years ago when I was 18 and I loved in fear of losing someone else again unti I reached 35. It totally controlled my life and I in turn tried to control that of my husband and my kids to try to prevent it happening again.
I ended up having the briefest course of counselling and it helped me tremendously. you need to get this sorted before it goes onto more serious things. It is nothing to be scared of but it wil drag you down more and more if you don't get some help.
As others have said, death is natural and not avoidable, but you may be suprised to find you deal with it better than you could ever have thought. Good luck XXXX

[SuDFB]

baileybird...

thanks for your advise i will consider it :)