Nervous Breakdown

[Picky]

Hi all

I don't know if this is one if those questions where if you ask if you are, then you're not, but how do you know if you're having or heading for a nervous breakdown?

On Wednesday I wait waiting to cross the road with the baby Puckys, when opposite me a three year old stepped into the road and was knocked over and killed in front of us. I've taken professional advice on how to deal with the situation with baby Picky #1 who's 3 and also saw the whole thing, and I've spoken to my gp who's been amazing and I have a crisis counselling team coming out today, but I am in pieces.

It really is indescribable how horrific it's been and I keep thinking if I'm feeling like this his poor mummy must be destroyed. The thing is that the past 18 months have been just awful - I've had 2 miscarriages, lost my lovely Daddy at 7 months pregnant, had an awful birth experience after a cat 1 emergency c section under a general, awful infection, post natal depression and a really nasty experience bring really poorly with bad tonsilits and then their removal. I keep shaking, getting really confused, can't eat, only sleeping with the diazepam.

I know I can't crumble for my 2 boys, but I'm so frightened as to how I'm feeling. I've never felt like this before and I really don't know what to do with myself

Thanks

Px

[Gromit]

The Police have asked for witnesses to the incident in Bolton

Anyone with information is asked to call the road policing unit at Leigh on 0161 856 7201.

You and your child's statement could be vital.

[Mamyalynne]

Oh Picky my heart goes out to you, I live in Bolton too and the image of that little boy breaks my heart. You aren`t breaking down, you are in deep shock, take all the help thats being offered and as Gromit says, contact police (if they haven`t spoken already) it may make you feel that you are helping.

Take good care

Mamya

[Picky]

I've already spoken to the police 3 times, just waiting to hear if I can or need to do anymore. I have been told it's all on CCTV so hopefully that will five the police clarity on what happened. I just keep thinking if I'm feelif this bad, it must only be a millionth of how his poor mummy must be.

Px

[Mamyalynne]

You can`t take on his Mums grief Picky, just know there was nothing you could have done and don`t be too down on yourself. As others have said all this comes on top of a very rough time for you and its no wonder you feel so low.

Sending you Love from very nearby

Mamya ♥

[ladyalex]

You've had a ghastly experience on top of a series of dreadful life events. Who wouldn't be feeling shaky, weepy, utterly miserable ? Don't beat yourself up about it on top of everything else.
Other than try to look after yourself, rest if you can, get help if you can, there really is not a lot you can do just now. Try to let the worst of this wash over you rather than trying to 'deal with' it just now. Plenty of time to be doing that later.
If you feel like crying, cry. if you feel like wailing, wail. You're entitled.
Once you have got more of a handle on your feelings, you can star trying to somehow make things better for yourself, but not yet. It's too soon.
My best to you,
ladyalex :-))