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Hi people,
I'm sure most of you won't really be interested in this, but i promised an update and i am true to my word.
I took on board a lot of your opinions both negative and positive and mulled them over for some time.
I agree, it was unfair to expect him to want to move to a central location when I have so little to bring to the table.
If i'm honest, i've always felt a sense of inadequacy because of this ( I know we shouldn't measure ourselves on material assets-but it's hard not to sometimes).
In his defence he always reassured me on this front.... he loved me, and that was enough.
But what unfolded was something i never saw coming.
A few weeks ago, a message popped up on the front screen of his phone from his best friend (who knew my partner was with me at the time) that said, 'saw that girl lady who fancies you in the pub last night'
my partner had responded 'who?' then subsequently sent, 'send me a pic of her' followed by 'does she have a mortgage? lol' then 'and does she have a big bust, because you know that's my achilles'
(I only saw these messages as he was in the shower and they lit up on the front screen of his phone as i was doing my make up-so no, no snooping).
I felt like i'd been kicked in the stomach if i'm honest.
So yeah, that inadequacy that i was feeling- ROCKETED!
I told him to leave- and didn't see him for a while. We've since spoken, he's apologised, he loves me bla... but i can't shake the feeling that i am a bit of a joke (which is on me, i recognise that). However, I can't see this feeling disappearing quick, and it would be unfair to continue our relationship treading on egg shells.
He thinks 'my distance and low mood' are related to my father being ill, to a degree they are, but this episode has made me feel pants. His defence being that 'it was only said in jest'. My point being, love IS respect, and for him to joke about a situation he knew i felt ashamed of,was in poor taste, aside from the fact he requested pictures of another woman?!
I think i'm better off on my own, with my daughter- skint, but free from drama! haha
So there you go, i promised an update, and although it wasn't positive, it was what you deserved, as you had kindly taken the time to respond to me.
So thank you.