Split with ex BUT...

[jadeymodel]

Split up with my ex of 3 years to find out he's been really cheating on me badly. This hurt yes...however, as I had been with him for 3 years one time we made a porno, Just the two of us, to 'spice' things up. I know it was silly, but when ur engaged to someone you really don't think he'd show it to others...turns out his mate has a bit of a crush on me and couldnt wait to tell me that my ex had showed the whole football team what we had done. I know it was silly of me, I 100% regret it, It was noting bad bad..However Im shocked and hurt that he'd do such a mean thing...His mates all think bad of me from this. i know to people it can be ****** in a way however I really was in love with the guy and it really was mena be for our eyes only. I know I cannot sue as I was wishing to take this further as I feel he has completely disrespected by showing it to his mates. What can i do now?? Can I take this further?? Or should I man up and deal with whats happened.

I feel so ashamed :(

I was physically sick the other day when I realised he'd slept with lotsa ppl behind ma bk. I really loved hime and cant seem to take my mind off this pain. :( I feel like a silly, stupid fool and i have exams in less than a month :(

xxx

[jadeymodel]

I know. I know. My mum keeps tellin me. I had to escape bk home for TLC as Ive been really upset about it all, More hurt that he could do this to me. I couldn't imagine ma life without him! :( now everything seems weird. Just hate how he's the one who's cheated but yet I'm the one who looks like the biggest fool walking! :(

his mates called me a s l a g for it! :(
xx

[BRIZE]

jm how old are you hun?

[jadeymodel]

its rude to ask a lady her age! ;)

88

haha

21...HOW NIEVE was I?
I can take criticism. I know it was wrong. I don't lie or hide anything, I even told my mother but I can't help feel stupid that I done such also I feel belittled by the man I seriously, stupidly thought loved me! xx

[BRIZE]

JM, once bitten twice shy eh, your Ex is a mug for showing the film to anyone. His mate is odd thinking that by him telling you he will be able to get into your Knickers.
Its too late to be worrying about it now. do what Paris Hilton did and get on with your life. Its too short to worry about things like that. xx U got spirit girl. neva lose that xx

[gossipgirl]

i know where your coming from. i once made a video with my ex and he went on to show ot ito his freinds behind my back. i trusted him completely and never in my wildest dreams imagined he would do that to me. i was so hurt and embarrased and i didnt sleep for worry that he was gonna post it on internet etc. saying that though, one of his freinds , a few years down the line actually told me that no one thought it was clever of him and told him that he was a dick for doing that to me, andd that even a fight broke out because of it. he lost alot of respect for himself that day aswell. at the end of the day, its done now, you can only live and learn.

[tamborine]

Tell me where he is & will send bikers out to knock sense into him.....& get your porno....cant guarantee they wont look tho - they're b r o a d minded!

[beso]

Advice to all in this. When your man wants to make a porn movie, run for your life. It will come to no good.

I have never understood the point of porn. Why you would make your own is way beyond me.

[sqad617]

beso

"I have never understood the point of porn"

Sexual titivation.

"Why you would make your own is way beyond me."

Sexual titivation.

[beso]

To make decorative additions?

Never found the need for extra decoration in sex. Sounds more like a distraction to me. I suppose if you are not that into your partner it might help.

Like going to a restaurant and expecting the food to taste better by watching others eat.

Porn is like eating at Macdonalds. Just remember the actors in the ads are paid to look like they enjoy it but what actually ends up on your table lacks any real nutrition or flavour. Sugar, fat and salt will just make you sick in the end.

[sqad617]

beso.....completely flawed, but very well written and entertaining to read.

[jadeymodel]

yea i decided to man up if im honest. I can only learn from him and this stupid mistake I made...

I'm now strapping on a pair, gettin ma head in ma uni books, I will become sucesful in ma career and find someone decent in time.