Just to add to this, because I've just stumbled on it again and I want to get this off my chest, I think you are extremely rude and ungrateful.
You have so many people on here that have offered their help and support, yet as soon as one person doesn't reply to you, you get on your high horse and think it's acceptable to publicly 'shame' them.
No one has 'abandoned' you, you just expect everyone to be there 24/7 and, whilst that would be an ideal world, it's just not always possible.
Ummm has been a great support to you, yet you decided to tell everyone on here last week she "has only spoken to you once in two months", other people (including myself) have also offered to be there to support you, but sometimes it's a bit full on and it's just not possible to be there all the time... as much as you demand that.
I have told you all this via email, and have also posted on here regarding it too, yet you still continue to text me in the early hours of the morning and then throw your toys out of the pram when you don't get an immediate reply.
I completely agree with one of the comments above, in that it's extremely unfair of you to say you're feeling so down because of one person.
Just stop for a minute, stop thinking about yourself only and think how that makes that person feel. You have no idea what that person is going through, they may be in a worse 'place' that yourself, so maybe a little thought and consideration for other people's feelings wouldn't go amiss.
My suggestion regarding the samaritians was a genuine one, because you obviously aren't getting the support you need from answerbank, yet don't seem to want to look anywhere else or try any other options.
I think the majority of people will know the fallback of this response, in that your next post will be how bad you are feeling, how you've just been beaten up, or bitten by a dog, or how you're 'close to the edge', but you know what Diz, we all have problems and you need to stop putting everyone else on a guilt trip and making them feel even worse. It works both ways.
To anyone that comes on here and says this is out of order, I would ask you why?
This (the OP) is a horrible, nasty post aimed at people who have done nothing but tried to help, and was designed to make that person feel so bad that they'd be guilt tripped into responding.