Tracyh I don't no where you live but you may find best way is a trip to the country side (even the suburbs) and look out for a Christmas tree farm, you can choose your own and if you ask they will dig it up for you. However the bigger the tree the less likely it is to survive, I suggest a smaller one and bring it in each year they do grow quite quickly. If you leave them in the garden they grow huge our old house had a 75 foot one which was a nuisance. If you want tree for environmental reasons - don't worry about a cut tree, they are a sustanable resource and the dead trees are usually mulched or can be put inthe corner of a garden and become a good refuge for wildlife. Our tree always go to the Otter and Owl centre for their wildlife garden!