Should I stay at home and try to fix my education...or move out??

[Willow22]

i fell in love with this boy in primary school...when it came to high school he got sent to a private all-boy's school and I got sent to the localcomprehensive. I despaired and panicked. I became depressed...as I hadn't even let myself think about what would happen when it came to high school. I messed upmy education. I was also suffering from severe neglect at home only was too scared to say anything. I missed 4 years of high school.then when i turned 16 and got G grades in my GCSEs (apart from in English) no-one really helped me.....and i sat at home till i am now 18. I'm REALLY scared now.my parenst still don't look after me. I am now in a situation where it is likely that I will bump into/meet Skye again(the boy) and that he may even have been looking for me. what should I do? I feel sick. I still love him but I couldn't BEAR for him to see me like this. I feel like committing suicide.

Should I stay at home and try to fix my education? If i do then if I ever met Skye again in the future (which is likely) and I tell him that the reason I couldn't go to school , one of the reasons was because I was being neglected...he won't believe me since he'll wonder why I chose to stay at home and fix my education. he'll wonder why I couldn't cope back then at high school....but then suddenly could cope after that.

[ummmm]

lol caz!!!

[teddybon]

Willow please talk to someone face to face. You are upsetting all the sensitive souls of Answerbank. Don't ask for abuse ask for help- CHILDLINE