You were wearing a BNP badge which triggered the whole conversation, so it's no good pretending it was a one off anomally, a slip of a usually sensible brain.
For God sakes wake up to the views you hold, do something about yourself and stop wallowing in your own self pity. Just when I thought you couldn't get anymore disgusting you pull an "it's all about me, me, me" stunt and expect sympathy, wallowing around in your own self pity because no-one likes a neo-nazi fool who is too crass to realise the extreme evil of their views.
Get a grip.