hiya dot.hawkes i used to think when iwas in my 20s as you got older it all became clearer as you went along, for some people it works like that for others not so, things happen in life somtimes that idealy you cant be were you whant to be,this is not allways a bad thing waiting, may turn up somthing even better, remember you can allways change the future but not the past,look at the good things in your life,hopfuly they will cancel out the bad, and the best course maybe justing things day by day and somthing will turn up that oppertunity wiil be there somwere