Hey Sun,
Go to see a doctor. I suffered from pain,disappointment,and bouts of rage,feeling an outsider, and failure.All my teachers said "does't use full potential". They were wrong. I was doing great with what I was working with.I know that now, not then. People, places and things works only for a short while, Why? Because depression has a way of creating a life of it's on, at your expense. Should you opt not to see a "good" Dr now, just keep the option open and stay aware of how much and how often depression rules. Love