coccinelle, I don’t know, but I suspect the ‘force’ you talk about is really a result of your positive attitude to life and is actually coming from within yourself, so rather than give credit to something unknown, perhaps you should be congratulating yourself on your strength of mind. I also think constantly gloomy people have a very negative impact on those around them. Their attitude exhausts other people's energies. I think of them as being a bit like the Dementors from the Harry Potter books, who suck all the happiness out of people