Hi stevie1time,
I can't tell you how much I feel for you amd your family, you all have my deepest, heartfelt thoughts, Hope you don't mind, I have a true story which may help.
In 1964, I had a brother, four years old, he managed to open the front door, ran into the street, got ran over and killed, Where I started asking questions about God, my parents faith in God was unshakeable, they always believed they would see him again in heaven, I was at my mothers side when she passed away, and with her last breath, she held her arms out, and called his name.
I like to believe that he had come to escort her to heaven.
If you want to believe, i'd say find a Church, and talk to the Vicar/Pastor, or whoever is in charge, and have a talk with them, I personally, am not a believer, but I do know, that these places can give comfort and hope.
I wish you and you family all the best in the future, and I sincerely hope you find what your looking for.