Since I'm feeling down anyway. I believe in God since he, and yes to me he is male, offers me support and I feel a love when I think about him. And when I say he, him - I mean a male presence not an image. I really don't care if there is irrefutable hard evidence that God does not exist. I need the support of a father-figure, the feeling of really being unquestionably loved and cared for that is so lacking in my real relationship with my father and the other male relationships in my life. And the feeling of this love prevents me being the bitter person I could be everytime I see a father-daughter relationship of someone else, knowing that I can never have that. A belief in God can be very personal, it doesn't have to subscribe to a doctrine.