Sadly Elina I don't think anyone is in touch , wish I was.
Very sad to see someone so very low and despondent and be unable to reach out and I hope with all my heart that those mentioned in the replies tonight take on board what illness can do to a person.
SirA, For arksided, 'shine on you crazy diamond'. What can I say? One of the best blokes on here. One of the few I'd have actually liked to have met, but doubt you'd have wanted to have met me - not once you'd seen me face, lad!
Thank you I've enjoyed your posts, usually in the wee hours, hope you do reconsider... just take a 'time-out' and come back soon.
aaww, only just read this....,poor Sir A, if you're looking in ...depression is a terrible terrible misunderstood disease. I wish you well, although I don't think we've ever interacted. I found out I was being discussed by "friends" in a secret group on Facebook last year...it was a Sunday afternoon, and I knew alcohol was behind it. Really hurt me.
Best of luck, and get proper medical attention if you haven't already.