Life As A Morbidly Obese Person

[Islay]

Yesterday’s thread got me thinking and actually kept me awake for most of last night, fuelling thoughts and feelings that I thought were behind me.
So I thought I would give you an insight into my life for those that think it’s easy to lose weight – I mean sure you just control what you put in your mouth don’t you?
On January 31st 2017 I weighed 31 stone I now weigh under 20 stone!
It gets to the point where you weigh so much that there is no point in dieting as anything you can lose is just a drop in the ocean and that is the point I got too.
It took all my effort to get out of bed in the morning shower and drive to work. But I did work full time and tried to have a social life but it got to the point where I hated going out in public. If I dared step outside of the office the stares that I got and comments made to my face was horrendous. Now some may think that it should have been the boot I needed to diet – but it didn’t because I would reach for another cake and tell myself that I can eat what I want its others that have the problem – how is me being fat affecting them – what business of theirs that I am fat. You know it was nothing to do with them and they are just mean small people that should have been raised with better manners.
Then it gets to the point that you can’t stop eating, you need the joy that food gives you because you have so little joy in your life. You pretend to be happy and jolly and the life and soul so that people cannot see what you really feel inside how vulnerable you really are.
Now I have been called many names over the years most are not printable, yes I come across as blunt and harsh but you need to think about what you are saying to a person. There has been some horrid things written about me and I am sure that following this there will be some more.
But you know what? Bring it on I can change and am changing, the people that think its ok to ‘diss’ a fat person for eating a lot in a restaurant will always be narrow minded and bitter people.
So I am asking you not to judge a fat person you don’t know the whole reason for them being as they are. Just be grateful that you are not one of them!

[Islay]

I just want to say thank you all.
Choux I have considered motivational speaking and I may go there later when I am finished.
I have been asked to do a photo shoot for the company I had the operation with once I reach my target weight. I don't have to let them know just now.
When I am feeling a wee bit more braver I will add a photo of before and now - as I feel its the next step to moving on.

[hc4361]

Islay, if the surgeon wants to use your images for advertising, make sure they pay you.

[Barsel]

Have a read of this Islay. I hope you find it inspirational. Well done by the way, you have done really well.
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-5012303/Women-having-Lisa-Riley-s-fleur-lis-tummy-tuck-doubles.html

[Islay]

Thank you Barsel, interesting as the NHS have cut down the number of weight loss surgeries they do. They don't do it at all in Northern Ireland and in England and Wales they make you go through 3 years of counselling and classes before considering you.
Most people give up and have it done privately.

[Islay]

Good point hc I never thought of that lol

[hc4361]

I would expect at least £2k, Islay

[ethandron]

I think you know what I think Islay, but in case you've forgotten, I think you're absolutely wonderful, this post of yours almost had me in tears, it was so poignant and heartfelt. You're very courageous. As well as wonderful. And determined. xx

[Islay]

Thank you eth big hugs and kisses to you xx