i have been depressed for years ive tried anti depressants, counselling basically you name it ive tried, and i like you felt i was waiting for something but the last year, even though it has been an awful year for me i have realised only i can help me, i would go out with a smile on my face even if its forced, pretend to be happy and slowly my depression started to lift, its a fight but one you can win, as for waiting for things to happen some times they do but alot of the time YOU have to make these things happen, so think about the things you enjoy start doing them and you never know while you are enjoying yourself that special some body may just be there. Dont give up on yourself, try new things and try to find happiness in the smallest of things. Good luck cockney-si xxx