Theland - As long as you have been posting on here about the origins of the universe, you have been convinced that God must be the creator, because science does not have the answer.
I would suggest that science does not have the answer, and will not have it in our lifetimes, but it will, eventually.
Here is a simple example - a bumble bee in flight.
When the laws of aerodynamics were formed, it was discovered that in the terms of the laws of aerodynamics, a bee should not be able to fly, because the ratio of its wings size in relation to its body weight were incorrect, as far as the laws stated.
So science had a problem - here is a scientific law, and here is an insect species that defies it. The bee should not be able to fly, bu clearly it does.
Eventually, science caught up with the knowledge of photography, that enabled scientist to observe a bee in flight, and understand that the aerodynamic process it used to calculate the bee's flight was incorrect.
Specifically, scientists assumed that a bees's wings are fixed like a fly's wings, and slo-mo observation showed that the bee actually rotates its wings in flight, which enables it to fly even though the laws of aerodynamics indicated that flight should be impossible.
All it took was for science to catch up with nature, and prove that science's thinking and appliance of its laws was inaccurate - and what appeared to be impossible now had a proper scientific explanation.
If you extrapolate that process, there is going to come a time when science will explain the origin of the universe - you and I will not be here to see it, but our descendents will no longer spend hours and hours of fruitless hang-wringing as you do, looking for an answer that does not exist - because one day, the answer will exist.
Then, Christians can turn their attention to fretting about something else to ponder about their 'loving God' - such as why he created this -
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