Good Morning Early Birds!

[waterboatman]

Wednesday. Overcast again out there, but at least it's stopped snowing. A bit of running around to do, but I won't be out long, too chilly! Not a lot of energy today anyway. Must drop in to the surgery on my travels. Then it's home to make some phone calls. After that as little as possible.

[emmie]

i know Bobbi, but when the talking stops from doctors and the crises team there is just this awful down, blackness is the only way i can describe it. Perhaps the meds will take the edge off.

[rowanwitch]

Emmie, there rarely is any reason you can put your finger on, far more often an accumulation of general rubbish. The thing with depression is you can't see a way out because it sucks you in, you have to just hold on and let others see that route for you. So much of it is because of a chemical imbalance in the brain, the sertraline and other drugs in that family work by rebalancing those chemicals. It takes time, but it does work, those drugs have worked for millions world wide, You are not any different.
If I can give you one bit of advice, stop resisting , the ' yes but ' I see so often in your posts is reinforcing the problem, I know how easy it is to get into that habit and it's a way of delaying taking positive steps. It's a contradiction but I am too ill is an excuse we use to stop ourselves believing we can be well.

[Bobbisox1]

^^^ what a brilliant piece of advice from Rowan

[emmie]

i am only aware of how it must seem to those on ab and family and friends that its one constant me me me, - family know i have been ill before but can't do anything about it, nor can friends, i have taken doctor advice and back on anti depressants, which i hope to god have some lasting effect.