How To End My Suffering?
I am 21. I live in Hungary. It is a pretty corrupt, poor and rotten country. I live in one of the worst towns, in a pretty bad quality apartment. I am on the second floor, and on the first (ground) floor, there is a butcher shop. The noises that it makes every day from 4 AM to 4 PM are so nervracking that are make the aparment literally unliveable. Combined with the Soviet Union times wall quality, you hear everything like it happens right next to you. I am struggling. It makes my everyday as I am in the centre of hell. There is no legal way to get them out and there is no money to move to a rented apartment inside the country. I am a university student (universities are free here), I hope I will graduate approximately on the next year's summer. But the problem is that I cheated every second of it, so I have no real knowledge of my "profession". Without a university degree, you can only earn 380 pounds per month (that is the country avarage salary). With university degree, it can go up to 550-600, but those are rare cases and requires good knowledge (like IT experts). A rent (with food and bills) starts from 450 pound per month (450 is the cheapest way to live). Because of this inbalance of prices, there is no way to just move on my own. I would love to leave this country to the west, but everywhere in West-Europe is similarly expensive to live, like in the UK. I would have to work years without spending anything, just to save money for a move to west. What would you advice me to do?