Should I Commit Suicide To Avoid Too Much Uncertainty?

[Cjnix]

Someone said my options are one day or day one to. This person also said life is too short to wait for anything even though starting too soon is not good. Due to these things this person said I have only two options: run the risk of starting too soon by starting today or waiting until later which is when it will be too late. I don't want to start too early and be stuck with less time to start at the right time or be stuck in trouble with no time left to start at all. I know that this option seems harmful but I can't live with life threatening uncertainty 24/7 because it is pointless to start anything and then not have time to finish and or to wait for the right time and then end up running out of time due to sudden death. I just feel that every second I'm dying and that it is pointless trying to complete anything and everything since I'm closer to failing every second and will eventually officially fail due to sudden death. I'm closer to death every year even though people consider birthdays happy days. I don't even think I should even be asking for help because I can't avoid sudden death no matter what. I don't think it makes sense to even try live life to it's fullest since I can't always figure out when it is too soon start and when I'm going to officially be out of time to either start or restart and how many more attempts I can make. Suicide is the only option instead of running the risk of losing my life by choosing to make today my day one my time to start instead of waiting for one day which is not better or worse since either way I'm dying. I know that I said so much and even repeated myself but this is the best way for me to fully express my suicidal thoughts and seek help even though it will be pointless since I'm dying more every second.

[emmie]

you need help, suggest if you are in the UK you speak with a doctor, who will refer you to a specialist team, or try the Samaritans they are a brilliant organisation always willing to listen -

[emmie]

116 123 is the Samaritans number, but if outside the UK, see a doctor soon as possible.

[calmck]

Life is what you make it. Please find someone to talk to, family member, friend, doctor, priest, neighbour. Call a helpline or the local police. Go to your nearest hospital.

[Ellipsis]

In the UK, call: 116 123

In the USA, call: 1 (800) 273-TALK.

[Mozz71]

If you are in the UK, try these people. They helped (or rather "are helping") me with my mental health problems.

https://www.healthinmind.org.uk/

[Atheist]

Uncertainty is exciting. Certainty is a bore. Everybody here wants you to live and talk to us. Not to entertain us, but to stimulate us and yourself. We feel bad when we see a good human aching. Please talk to us so that we can appreciate what you have to offer as a human being. It's probably more than I have to offer, but I can live with that.

You are living more every second. Don't spit in the face of millions of years of evolution which made you the unique being that you are.

[pixie374]

I agree, you should find some proper help first.
But also, practically, you are in the same position as every other human. None of us know how long we will live for.
Start a list of everything you want to achieve, no matter what it is.... By 30, 40, 50 etc. It's entirely yours, you can change your mind, take longer etc, but, find some aims.
Most people's aren't world-famous and groundbreaking... just a decade, of partying, travelling, house, partner, jobs, kids.... but one step at a time.
Please, get some proper help x

[elliemay1]

Cjnix, please come back and let us know how you are now. You will always find someone to talk to on Answerbank

[ladybirder]

Suspended.