I am all in a mess

[steve208]

I feel so bad. I got home from work on tuesday and remembered i should have phoned the conservation charity i have been doing work for on a wednesday. Then was supposed to phone the office i do charity work at to say i could go in today but i was at my paid job yesterday and busy so didnt get time to do it before 5pm. I phoned this morning but there was only the tempory admin lady there, so i will have to phone back later to speak to the manager. I said i would phone if i could come in so i am hoping he will be ok with me. I suppose i am only a volunteer so my time is my own as it were. Anyway went in to work on my day off yesterday and ended up staying nearly 2 hours longer than i had said i would. I was going to go and have a few hours to chill by myself but missed out on that. Well i full of guilt today for missing out on things through working to hard and my head being in knots over various feelings. I suppose the only good thing about today is that i can have a day off to myself as i have worked around 60 hours since last satarday.

[ummmm]

Don't worry about it. The world could do with a few decent souls like you. Concentrate on the positives.

[steve208]

ok i am sorry to post but i have no one to turn to at the moment and i get very worried about so many things.

I will just try to apologise to the manager say that i was very busy with work and in hindsight should have used email to contact him if i was not able to call during the day. Anyway i will be standing outside the local tesco with a collection tin tommorow for the charity so thats one good thing.

The other thing is that i am thinking about applying for a job with this cancer charity that i have been volunteering at the office for and raising money for. But i am worried that the fact i have been too busy with my current paid job will make the manager think i wont be reliable for the paid job with the charity.

[Hellion]

Hi Steve. Really, don't worry about it, you are a caring considerate, hardworking soul, I can tell that just by your postings on here, I'm sure anyone who knows you well will fully understand that. You really have nothing to worry about Steve, call the manager at the charity and just say you were busy - you're young, you work, these things happen and no one will think the worse of you. It's not like you are someone who always lets people down are you?
How did the coffee morning go?
XX

[Hellion]

Sorry Steve we cross posted. Apply for your job, no one ever failed to get a job because the interviewer thought you worked to hard at the other one!

Good Luck!

ps I'd employ you, you are conscientious a great rarity these days.

[steve208]

The coffee morning went ok. Thanks to all the staff we made �143.13 for Macmillan Cancer Support.

I have a problem at work at the moment though......I have started to do extra hours on the other departments in the shop (i normally work backstage getting the deliveries in and organising the warehouse etc). I have done three sundays on foods and tuesday just gone on the cafe....now the foods manager and cafe manager want to poach me from store opps any time they can as i think they liked my work! Somestimes i wish i was like one of my colleagues....very lazy!! He made us laugh yesterday......we were all together and he said well i think i have earnt my �6 whatever an hour today...just once a month i do that!.....we all thought to ourselfs yes thats about right!!

[steve208]

Hum i try to be concientious but i do miss things now and then or dont spread my focus so miss something or forget someone's request for help.

[Hellion]

The fact other departments want to poach you shows you how well thought of as a worker you are, take confidence from that!

Well Done on the coffe morning by the way.

[serendipity1]

hi steve, you really must take time for you and not feel guilty it is so important and you definitely deserve it as you seem like a very giving human being, invite a friend round have a take away, watcha daft film and have a couple of glasses of wine and while your there give yourself a pat on the back cause there are very few people around like you x

[divegirl]

Ditto Serendipity...You need to relax a bit, you sound like a lovely person...and you have got people to talk to and fall back on....WE [us AB'ers] ain't going no where....we're always here for when your feeling stressed and down. So go look in the mirror....ignore the tired looking bits....and smile.... The suns shining...well it is here...lol

Lisa x

[steve208]

it is here too its great i have managed to tell myself - its my day off the sun is actually shining as it always seems to shine only when i work and i wish i was outside. Anyway just spoken to the manager at Macmillan and he said he was not expecting any of the volunteers in this week as they will be giving time for collecting at Tesco tommorow.
Anyway have agreed to go in on tuesday and then see when else they need me.

[divegirl]

So go enjoy the sunshine....have a beer on me...I'll send you an I.O.U

Much love

Lisa x

[steve208]

I should go to the social group i have been going to every thursday tonight. But i have so many things to do at home and feel like i need some time out as i am getting really uptight stressed or down, i go from one feeling to another all through the day. Also i need to be in work very early tommorow so cant be going to bed at nearly midnight.

I will feel bad not going to the social group but do feel like i need time off from some things to regroup emotionally if that makes sense.

[ruthann58]

i have days like this when there is far to much going on for my head to remember so i have pads that i write things down on if its on the pad i dont have to have it in my head and find it as i work from home everybody thinks i can do it all housework ,meals etc and that i have got loads of time on my hands. if i have got to make phone calls they all go on the pad best place for it is in your back pocket with a pen then as somthing flashes through your mind write it down i always remember something important when i am mucking out the horse or in the loo