I Keep Withholding Information From The People That Surround Me. Am I Manipulative?

[StupidGuy]

Something I recently learned about myself is that I get ecstatic when I withhold information.

 

For example, me and my mother were talking, and she brought up secrets. I eluded to a secret I didn't want to say, and she started to ask questions on why I couldn't say the secret. The rush I get from that interaction scares me. The reason being, that I can't tell if this is normal/okay to feel. Is this setup even normal? Making a point to mention something I am not going to say, and making people question it? I think subconsiously I want to chase the feeling I get, but in my consious mind, I think that is a manipulation tactic. I don't mean to be malicious when I do it, but I think someone in the answers is going to say otherwise.

 

I don't know what to think, and I hope someone here has the answer. Thanks in advance

 

(PS, if someone could recommend a better category that would help me more/fit thematically, that would be great. If by chance this is the right one, just make sure I see it in your answer somewhere.)

[douglas9401]

I could tell you, but I'll let you work it out for yourself.

[newmodarmy]

https://www.theanswerbank.co.uk/Family/Question1864543.html

Was this the same issue here?

[StupidGuy]

Not quite. Those times are about secrets that I don't want to see the light of day, but the ones that make me happy are a level below that. Things I don't want to say, but it wouldn't kill me if I did.