Going Around In Circles

[nailedit]

I know what certain people on here think of me so do me a favor adn just dony comment,,,

As previously stasted, ive fell of the wagon after 5 months sobriety. Ive rang, texted and left voice mail to local drug and alcohol addiction services. They just wont reply!

I have a friend in a similar boat. He went into detx just b4 me and also fell of the wagon, and he to is trying again ..

They engaged with him again but not me.

What the actual???

What am I supposed to do? Im trying to get better but when the local drug and alcohol agencies give up on you???

Fed up of been plssed all the time. Dont want to be like this but fear that im about to die.

Maybe I need Jesus??

 

[haras2]

nailedit,

Thinking about the "Family Effect".

My mother was an alcoholic who died at the age of 67 in 1987....

All these years later, I still think about her every day and still miss her as do her grandchildren...

Please , try not to do this this to your family....

[elliemay1]

nailedit, why not open up to your family. I'm sure they wouldn't want you to go through this on your own.

[Barmaid]

Nailed it, they have not given up on you, those services are under pressure and hugely under funded. They will want to get back to you but they will be working thru a v long list.

You can do this, you have demonstrated that. 

How about tomorrow, instead of having your first drink at 9am, you have it at 10. The next day try 11am then 12 etc. You will still be giving your body the need for alcohol, but you will be starting with alcohol free periods. Before you know it you can do a day. X

[nailedit]

//try not to do this this to your family//

Thats why I went 5 month sober despite everything in me screaming for a drink everyday.

I'm not this way for fun! I think about my family everyday.

[nailedit]

//nailedit, why not open up to your family. I'm sure they wouldn't want you to go through this on your own//

Majority of my family dont speak to me.

[nailedit]

BM,

I totally get where you are coming from but I dont have an 'off' button. Once I start i cant stop.

Thats why I ended up in hospital last yeay for a medical detox.

[nailedit]

Just cant get past the bloody intercom who then tells me to ring up and then get no reply back...

[Karamia]

If it was me that needed similar help to you or a family member of mine that needed similar help all I could think of to do would be to book and attend a doctor appointment every single day and also attend A & E every singke day/night constantly explaining the painful ongoing issues both mental and physical until someone listens and puts correct help in place.

I can't claim to know what you are going through Nailedit, but I do have experience of no agencies/ no-one listening when help is desperately needed. All I know from my own experience is that the squeakiest wheel gets oiled first, and the more your voice is heard the sooner help will be put into place.

Please keep trying to get help, from as many places as possible. Your family would want you to recover and be happy again.

[nailedit]

Everybody means well with good intentionel advice but

it doesnt pan out in reality....

[elliemay1]

I still think that there should be at least one family member who would support you. Who are you closest to?