depressed

[sair5412]

I have been diagnosed with depression for a while now and my doctor was very quick to prescribe me with ant-depressants. The problem is they make me feel like a non-person and my emotions are just numbed and sometimes that feels worse than the sadness so i have not been taking them. She has referred me to a councellor who just hands me photocopies about how to handle panic attacks and information on depression. I feel i am getting nothing out of that.... i don't know.. I am struggling at the moment. I am crying all the time, can't be bothered to do anything, my energy levels are just zapped. I am eating loads of bread and carbs and i am putting on weight. I feel like everyone I know looks down on me and thinks i am a failure and pathetic. I am a 27yr old single mother of a 4 year old boy. I work 2 days a week 9-6pm in a call centre. My life is just one big weekly cycle and i am sick of everything. I hate my job and i am finding myself ringing in sick because i can't face going in after no sleep the night before or my eyes are puffy from crying. Or i go in and my chest is constantly tight and i am fighting back tears.

[sunflower71]

ow sair i wish i could give you a big hug.
its always easier giving advise than putting it into practice.
you should try some simple breathing excersises, stop what you are doing close your eyes and slowely breath in via the nose, hold for a few seconds and realse SLOWLEY via the nose too, do this 3 times. but really feel the breaths.
Honest try it and it will help in that current situation.
obviously its not a long term fix but might help clear your head for a bit.