Hi Ultra, I don't know that there is any sort of plan or that you are 'needed' by any god to do anything in particular. Life changes. The chances are that In ten or twenty years time, you won't think the same way as you do now, and you won't see life in the same way either, so don't dwell on the past - just live for the future in the best way you can. Opportunities will arise, your path will cross with others and sometimes you'll help them without even knowing it. We never know what's around the corner.