My biggest fear is losing one of my children, has been for alot of years, It's probably being morbid and dramatic, but i don;t want to have to attend any of their funerals and in recent years there has been so much to make you worry, I often get melancholy about it, writing it down doesn;t seem to exorcise the fear, maybe I watch too much tele , but my children have attended the funerals of 4 of their peers this year, in our little village.