dot hawkes

[Drisgirl]

I cannot and do not believe what you have posted about me.

See Legend (yawn ) thread.

Crux is -if I cant seperate real life from here I shouldnt be here -says Dot,

Ergo -I dont have an opinion-.
Right here goes -listen up missy -yeah you Dot.

Got yer attention -good!!!

My children lost their dad and have the strength and love and backing to be able to rebuild their lives -they are on a monthly basis met with legal/court procedures that even flummox me -THEY HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT -not as a bystander -because they must.

Now I have lost friends as have R and J in their short lives -believe it or not you and yours dont have the monopoly.

To compare what I along with my children are going going through compared with your kids losing pals is crass and completetly and utterly beyond comprehension.For you to say 'leave the site' to me -well if youre on it i'm off.

Sorry to my real pals but a Vodka infested wicked no-mark -naw I'll take a rain check.

She will be sorry in the morning but sorry is too late when we wake up every morning sorry that a good decent man was cruelly taken from us and she makes light of it and invites me to leave the stie.

Well -have yer Dot.

For the record I am sober and lucid -Legend has phoned me because he knew this was a difficult afternoon for me and he will vouch for me.

Dot -I pity you..........truly.

[Munkeeluvva]

Sorry to hear about your problems Drisgirl. But you do seem to somehow blame us on here for some obvious 'issues' that you need to sort out. No offence intended. x

[Drisgirl]

Erm -munkee -the thread is entitled Dot Hawkes and relates specifically to something she said -so where do yiou come in to the equation?

[Munkeeluvva]

Most new topics in here tonight were titled with someone's name. I didn't realise that only the person whose name was at the top could post there.

Please accept my sincere apologies for not reading the small print.

Hmmph.

[Skreecheeboy]

Legend you crack me up man! I won't get involved either, I'm just gonna go to bed and hopefully wake up at 7.30 bright and breezy.

[Drisgirl]

No probs everone -this thread is for Dot and Dot only.

I dont hide in other threads and post snidey remarks -what you see is what you get with me Dotty -wouldnt go much further hun -you have pushed me to almost my limits in 'cyber' land.
To think I have EMailed you and supported you (when i had more than enough to deal with) and yet when full of the Voddie you diss me -honest hun -you really underestimate me -woah -big styleee xxx

[Munkeeluvva]

Woah, hold up here a minute.

Didn't you just post this rant in Gill's bit then?

[Redbel]

Hiya Dris.......not read what Dot has posted and I don't want to get involved, but Dot is not around at the minute, but I'm sure she will will reply later. xx

[Drisgirl]

Munkee -check yer times hun -its not a rant -its just pulling someone up -simple OK?Say something -take the rap -OK?

Bez -no doubt -look forward to what she has to say -not your business hun xxx

Only posted on open forum for everyone else who wondered - cos she posted on open forum re me -suppose its fair I have my right to reply -eh?

[Redbel]

Dris, this is the reason I bother with no one on MSN now.....well not anyone from AB......too many sh!it stirrers...x

[Munkeeluvva]

Times?

You posted this at 01:08 and your rant in Gills bit at 01:24

Check yer times hun.

[Drisgirl]

and -munkee -i posted this first ya twit -lol

[Munkeeluvva]

My point entirely.

You posted this at 01:08

Then gave me wrong for posting in here because it didn't have my name at the top.

You then proceeded to carry on this rant in Gill's bit at 01:24 - which, by your reckoning, you shouldn't have done because it never had your name at the top.

Do you see where I am going with this?

We can post where we like, it's not for you to tell us otherwise, see?

[Drisgirl]

O f u c k whatever munkee -taht all you are bothered about lucky you.

I havent even eigested your posts cis they werent to you.

I await Dots robust reonse in the aober light of dat-Dot -say waht you willc -I COULDNT GIBE A FLYIMG F U C K .

nO Excuse -let yourself down big style -least i can say as far as my kids are concerned I have never done that as well as with other peoples problems.

Dot -take a long hard think -dont contact me or reply -this was my right of reply.

If I were u -in the cold light of day -I would be thouroughly ashamed -thats me but I would never -ever with a drink on board say what you said...................I dont get you -I never will................you IMO only- are verging on wicked with the Voddie.I would never have said that about your circumstances-ever -even tho my daughter at 18 is getting on with her life and trying to pick up the pieces 0and boy does she have a LOT still to come -she hasnt sought sancuary -no -she has got on with it just like when she lost a dear friend -same as R -he has lost 2 dear friends and has the strength to get on with it.

Must take after me eh Dot?

[Drisgirl]

Woops -typos al over the joint -enjoyig my chicken too much -sorry -you'll all get the gist -lol

Shows how important it was to me -tee hee !!!

[Munkeeluvva]

Christ, I need to get me some of that chicken. lol lol

[Drisgirl]

Dot -I am very sorry and very ashamed about this post.I wish I could take it back but I cant.Your remark got under my skin along with other peoples remarks -just when I had basically just came on here in a good mood.
On reflection you are right -I cant seperate the real world from here -try as I might.When I see so much hatred and fighting and then people have a go at me when I havent even spoken to them-I do become very bitter and lash out.Im not proud of that or myself.
I am not making any excuses -I was wrong to post what I did and for what its worth I bitterly regret the things I said as I quite simply dont mean them.
Again -I apologise and I will leave the site-I was bang out of order-so if this site makes me become so spiteful because I am sensitive then its not the place for me.

[cruella]

Dris,
Just been reading a few of the posts this morning.
Tell me to butt out, as I now it is none of my business.
No idea what Dot said, I am sure no harm was meant, but I have to say, it takes a big person to apologise the way you have today. I take my hat off to you.
Yesterday was probably an emotional day for you and your family after all you have been through recently.
No surprise you eventually snapped last night.
The build up of the past few months, your parents Golden Wedding Anniversary, has to have brought all the past years flooding back with bitter sweet memories.
We all have times when we feel as you did and want to vent our anger.
Don't beat yourself up over it.
I am sure everyone will understand how you were feeling and forget it.
We all have a breaking point and have no control how or when that will be.
Hope you are feeling better today.

[dot.hawkes]

I did post during my time on here last night that i was not drinking because I had to run my son's girlfriend to work at 7.30am, and that i had a christening at 10.30 am.
You have assumed I had been drinking, despite what i said, therefore I assume you think i was lying when i said that i was not drinking.
I was talking to bez last night for a considerable period of time and she knows that I had not had anything alcoholic, this is what really annoys me, if you want to blame the drink on your posts fair enough, I was not drinking and everything i wrote i wrote with a clear head, if people with drink in them lack the ability to understand what i write that is their problem.
I am not offended by you Drisgirl, it is not a competiyion to see who can grieve the most, If I want to discuss my family life on this site I do not use Chatterbank, I use Family or Family Life, as you well know.
I joined this site some years ago and I have been here long enough to be able to seperate it from MSN, from Facebook, from Bebo, from text messages and from real life. I try to keep it that way, this site is not joined at the cyber hip with MSN or anywhere else.
If you feel you need to apologise fair enough, I didn;t read this until just now as I have just got in from the Christening party.