Sorry to hear about what you're going through. I've been through a similar situation. You need some support... often friends and relatives mean well.. but they don't really understand what you're going though cos they haven't experienced it. Have you tried contacting Women's Aid? (national charity) They have a domestic violence helpline and they were absolutely brilliant when I needed emotional support and practical advice, recently. You can find Womens Aid online, or look them up in your local phone book. (Try looking for domextic violence as well.) God bless.