luckyman, you remind me of me when I was 19. You've got to hang in there, mate. My old dad moans about the modern world but the world in his day was not a nice place either. And if we go back centuries, in the Middle Ages people thought the end of the world was near - they had war, famine, pestilence and death (the Black Death) on an unprecedented scale, like biblical prophecy. But hey - we're still here! I think you're going through a bad patch, mate. Avoid things that upset you for now like TV and newspapers. See your GP if you're depressed, give life a chance (sometimes it takes a long time) and you'll meet people and form relationships. Take care.