Bubbles I sympathise with you honey... I was in the same situation last June. After 18 yrs I split with my partner, i was devastated, didn't know what to do, where to go, how I was going to survive luckily for me I had no children to consider in our relationship).... Now 7 months later, I have my own place, more positive with myself and can see a future. I am happier. Though we loved each other, we couldn't live together, we wanted separate things out of the relationship and couldn't compromise. I could not have done all this without the help and support of my family & friends. They all rallied around when i needed them and kept in the background when i need 'my space'. I'd be lying if i said i wish things had been different with me and my ex, i wish it had worked but it couldn't. I'd also be lying to you if i said i don't have days when i feel sorry for myself, but that doesn't last for long. I wipe my eyes and find something to do, call or visit friends/family... who know me very well and they are a great 'pick-me-up'. These 'sorry-days' are becoming less and less now. I've found new hobby (dance class) and adopted a cat for companion. If you feel its something you need to do .. do it. You will come out the other side feeling better and stronger,believe me. Keep family & friends close by, and tell them how you are feeling,don't keep it bottled up. Find a new hobby to occupy yourself, you'll discover new friends along the way too. Believe in yourself and you will be happier. I wish you Good Luck .. ML xx