zxr69, I've just read your post - I'm so sorry to hear about your lovely dog. It's always so sad (and difficult for some folk to understand) when we lose a beloved pet, but all of us who post on her understand and sympathise. When my dear old Zak (GSD) had to be put down at 15 years of age, we all cried for weeks, and then there was Sherman - he was my hubby's dog (also GSD) and doted on him. Sadly, I lost my husband in 2005 and then poor Sherman just went to pieces. He wouldn't eat, just laid on the rug in our living room, looking sad, then he turned nasty and attacked my collie and nearly killed him, so I made the difficult decision to have him put down. It broke my heart, especially as I'd promised my hubby that I'd look after him. I still have his sister, Elsa, who is my baby - an absolute star, even now, at 10 years old. We all know how you and your wife feel, but just be glad that you gave Benjamin a great life and you loved him. He's waiting for you, on Rainbow Bridge. Love, K xxx