I lived for many many years like this as I was in a violent relationship and was called names every single day.
I really hated myself and it was so bad I couldn't even look in the mirror.
Everything changed when I finally had the courage to leave this man.
Slowly, I replaced the thoughts I had with positive ones about myself, told myself I was beautiful and attractive.
Recently I have been to see Sue Stone who runs courses, she is a life coach, as I was being bullied at work and I could feel the negative taking over again.
Please look on her website, as over the years I have paid good money to see people etc and she is the best I have ever been too.
If you want my email address, I am willing to help you too as I feel I would like to support anyone I can as I have been there.
You have the power within yourself to make the changes you need you just need support x